love

I know i usually post depressing stuff but recently i met someone =) and sheez perfect!! and she’s a change from the girls i normaly date she’s nce kind and caring and an emo/scene chick and she’s beautiful!  She makes me happy and smile all the time and she’s like a tom boyish type girl and loves sports and such and she ahtres cheerleaders. so if i got find someoe like this then that means that theres hope for all of you as well

Lots of ove

-HAIL (happy and in love) aka the kid formely known as DAO

DONT give in and never give up

hey im back

hey im back boys an girls, and im here to help again. I had a great vacation in case anyones wondering but I’m more concerned about you guys. So if anyone needs any advice or help im here for you agian.

We lve you

Never Give In

-AntiAnaEmo-

Partial

hi DAO here, i now its been a while since i’ve posted, well since me or AntiAnaEmo has buit i promise you we both will very soon. today was my first day of partial at McLeans ART in Brockton, an it was okay, i saw an old flame there which was akward but there doesnt seem to be any hard feelings so its all good, but i must say it has changed since m,y last visist an i found out ill probably be there for a week an a hlaf, and that isnt so bad. i’ll write everyday an when AntiAnaEmo gets back from his Vakay he’ll post some more as well, also people pleez comment on the site, so we atleast know we are helping someone.

We love you

Dont give up

-DepressedAndObsessed-

lies and rumors

Lies and rumors, something everyone knows about or has to deal with them. i myself have dealt with rumors and lies and seen how they hurt people and they have hurt me. I for one know why people start rumors, some are good and some have good intentions. some people start them in order to hurt people, and some people start them to hurt people who have hurt them or thier friends.unfortunately they never end well, never try to fight fire with fire when it comes to lies, because in the end everyone goes down in a ball of flaming drama and nobody wants that. Even if nobody knows it was you who started that rumor, you’ll know and eventually it’ll eat you up inside until you are forced to admit it. Basically what goes around comes around, and if you start a rumor it will come back to haunt you.

You know we love you………

never give in………

 

 

-AntiAnaEmo-

Whats the point?

Whats the point? a question many of you have probably asked yourself at one point or another. Many people question why they are alive. Some people think they live for a specific purpose or goal, while others think they exist because god created them. i too used to question my existance and wonder why on earth should i go on and the answer or conclusion i eventually came to was that i exist to help others and to do good. i live because i have not fufilled my purpose yet. i have not helped enough people for me to feel that it is my time to die yet so i live, i live until the day where i feel that i have completed my task. All i want you to do if you ask yourself this question is to try to figure out your purpose and atleast try to live long enough to complete your task on this world before you die. Please but honestly you should know that the point of living in my opinion is to find your true purpose and do it, and until i have done mine i will not die.

 

Never Give Up…..

you know we love no matter what anybody else thinks……..

-DepressedAndObsessed-

We need your help.

We need the readers of this blog to help us. me and AntiAnaEmo are stil doing our parts to help everyone but now we need one of our readers to help us. We are looking for someone to help us and post to help other people. So if you are interested in helping, send us an email, telling us 1. why you want to do it, 2. what your name will be, and 3. what subjects you’d be intetrested in talking/writing about.

 

You know we love you……..

You’re never alone………….

-DepressedAndObsessed-

Sexuality

I figured i should talk about sexuality since its an issues most teens deal with today. In a society where more and more people are coming out about thier sexual orientation, there are also those there to hate because of it. The average person in thier life has atleast two gay or lesbian moments. Something that bothers me though is that there are those who say they hate gay people then go and cheer for lesbians making out. In my opinion you cant be picky choosey, you either arent accepting of gay people, or you are. Todays kids are afraid of what people will think of them if they come out so many kids go on without ever coming out and it causes a lot of internal conflict within themselves. a prime example of that is in a playwrite called “A Streetcar Named Desire” in it a Woman marries a boy who is gay and she finds out and eventually he kills himself. This may not be real but this stuff happens all the time, believe it or not. If you are what they call “homophobic” and your friend comes out to you dont be a douche, be a friend. All I’m asking is that if someone comes out to you, you show them the respect you’d show any other friend if they told you they liked someone regardless of thier sex/gender. A friend is someone who accepts you regardless of your flaws and accepts you for who you are.

“A friendship is founded on the belief that you know so much about each other and if you ever betrayed you then you’d do the same. A best friendship is formed on the fact that you know they wouldnt do that to you”

 

-DepressedAndObsessed-

taking initiative

Today as i was checking up on the site i noticed that there were really only five comments which means we need to do more to help people. So today in school i went forward to a group that helps with fundraisers and stuff and petitioned them my idea about doing a little awareness thing about anorexia and not only did they agree to it but it’ll also be about SI eating disorders and other teen issues and what not. I think that everyone should attempt to try to do the same. I’m just asking you guys to go out there and try to raise awareness about depression and all of the other stuff. And for those that dont go to a school just try to help someone that you dont know that well that looks like they need some help.

You’re not alone, and don’t forget that we love you no matter what and we love you despite your issues, we are non judgemental and we’re here to help.

-AntiAnaEmo and DepressedAndObsessed-

The razor blade is not a very good friend, because

with his help i will come to an end….

Poems

Dear Anorexia

© By Talia J. Benzaken

Dear Anorexia,
It’s time to say goodbye.
If we stay together any longer,
I know that I will die.

We’ve been together for a while,
and shared our secrets, I know.
It’s hard for me to say this,
but it’s time to let you go.

Mommy warned me of your ways,
and how you didn’t treat me right.
When I told you of her worries,
you only put up a fight.

You made me poke my stomach,
and squeeze my meatless thighs.
And though I was only skin and bones,
I saw fat and hatred through your eyes.

With all the pain I had to suffer,
and the hunger I went through,
I realize I’m much better off
not to be with you.

So as I tell you my last words,
and bid you my farewell.
I can feel myself regaining strength,
and cannot wait to tell.

You will soon find another,
to haunt her and to scare.
and I only hope that she, too,
will show you she doesn’t care.

I know that you will want to stay,
and pressure me to try.
But I am telling you now and for good,
Goodbye Anorexia. Goodbye.
____________________________________________________________

 

You say I’m not good enough/

I’m fat and weigh too much/

That the scale, it lies/

You cloud my eyes/

With delusions of obesity and weight/

You say I’m ugly, and too fat to get a date/

That boys will love a skinnier me/

That I’m not as thin as I could be/

You entrap me, ensnare me/

Starve me, and scare me/

Food is not the enemy/

To think so would be elementary/

But I’m stronger now/

And not a cow/

I’m happy as I am/

You call it “Thinspiration”/

I’d call it exploitation/

But now you’re gone and I am free/

I’m happy here, just being me/

Above is one written by me

-AntiAnaEmo-

My inpatient experience

A few months ago i was an inpatient at a mental institute (Rehab) for my SI problems. i had been hurting myself for years and cutting for about 2 1/2 yrs and one night i attempted to end my life by suffocation via my belt. After i passed out because of the restricted blood flow, i awoke about an hour later and tried to O’D on my sleeping medication, afte i downed 17 pills i went upstairs and cut up my wrists more severly than i ever had before. Two days later my mom ended up seeing my wrist and i badda bing badda boom next thing i know im at a place. While there i had both great experiences and bad ones. I met great people and sum less than favorable people. 

Withing my first 3 days there i witnessed sum1 being restrained and taken away in a straight jacket. That was sumwhat scary. after that happened i ended up having to be in a room by myself, which was terrible, i hated it and i felt more alone than i ever had before becuz i would stay up late crying becuz of how terrible i felt inside. I didnt have anyone to talk to and i felt like i couldnt get my feelings out in a safe way so i made a pledge called the ”Complete acceptance” pledge. it stated that no matter what the people there wanted me to do, i would do it if they thought it would help me. And i did. no matter how stupid i felt when we were doing sumthin i knew it had to be done, and whatever they asked me to do i did.

One sugestion they had was for me to keep a journal while i was there and i did. i logged every day that was there. im thinking of posting the journal up on this site but im not sure if i should. If you think it would help then leave me a comment telling me if i should or not.

Also We’re going to be posting quotes and inspiring stories that me and AntiAnaEmo find on the internet or that we’re told, so if you have a story that you think could potentially help someone then all i ask is for you to email it to us and we might post it.

-DepressedAndObsessed-